Ups and downs

I don’t understand

Why my emotions are so strong

Like being prodded with a stick

What is going on?

One moment I am up

I am ok with the day

I don’t need it to end

I do not feel afraid

But then there are the downs

And they really mess me up

Looking always for the escape

Cause I want it so much

I try to control my emotions

To get on top of them

But sometimes they’re stronger than me

It drives me round the bend

Why is it so hard?

To get along with life

We always just seem to cope

Trying not to subside

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The roses wilting

The roses wilting

Over the side of the glass

Sensed they had given up

Could not forever last

My sickening feeling

Inside of me

Sadness seeping out

Wanting to be freed

They look so tired

As if it’s the end

Flowers to one side

No way to mend

As I gaze down

Studying the floor

A tear leaves my eye

I can’t do this anymore

Grabbing the stalks

Piercing my hand

Throwing with force

Don’t care where they land

As I collapse to the floor

Feeling sorry for myself

I have given up

I need to find help

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Every day implodes

How can we feel so lonely

When surrounded by everyone

Feel like such a waste of space

Unwoven and undone

Sinking uncontrollably

Clockwise down the plug

Choking on oxygen

Cause we’ve had enough

Looking for a way out

Through the putrid mud

Reaching our hand out

For someone to love

Tears cry tears in waterfalls

That we cannot control

Life is a confusing mess

That every day implodes

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I wish I had someone to talk to…

I wish I had someone to talk to

How can I feel so alone?

Surrounded by my family

In my own sweet home

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I can’t put my finger on it

Unable to understand

Why do I contemplate?

How do I withstand?

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Constantly looking for an exit

I could leave if I want

Always putting obstacles

So that I won’t

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Am I selfish

As I think of myself

What would I become?

If I became someone else?

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I sometimes fantasize

About what could be the end

I think I need some help

I think I need a friend

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I never got to ask you

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I never got to ask you

And now I never will

So many thoughts in my mind

Alone is how I feel

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I cannot hit stop

My mind will not allow

If only you could hear me

My voice, somehow

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What happens to our love

When we drift apart?

Where does it go

When we have to restart?

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How much do we have to hurt

Before the pain subsides?

Does it hurt for them as well

How it hurts me inside?

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Will it just pass away

Along with the time?

Will it just stay with me

One day to feel fine?

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As lying to ourselves

To surpress the obvious truth

Seems easier to us

Than seeing the actual proof

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And which of us is unbroken

Tattered in shadowed thoughts?

Now feeling enormous regret

Wishing that they had fought

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Isolation isolation isolation

Isolation isolation isolation

Go mess yourself

Isolation isolation isolation

It’s my mental health

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How long will it be

Until I shall be free

Stuck in my house

With my big damn mouth

Oh my what glee

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There’s only so much I can do

200 bog rolls oh poo

Oh why’d I buy so much

Oh my I’ve had enough

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So I’ll sing my song

You better sing along

And if you don’t

You probably wont

Isolation for you

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Quarantined asylum

I’m searching for escape

Got so much on my plate

It’s too much for me

I wish I could be free

Pondering what to do

Even considered faking the flu

Just nowhere to go nowhere to roam

Stuck here grounded, consealed to the home

Pacing the walls up and down

Impossible to evade this frown

Space is eluding time to myself

It’s starting to inflict my mental health

Being selfish now thirst for solitude

My bubbled silence my way, not rude

Evading anger in every way I can

Because it is not an acceptable plan

Am I cowardly how I percevere?

I do not know, certainly not clear

Cannot run, never really been my game

I’ve always been too stubborn and refrained

How long can I last this intense pain

Hopefully not before I go insane

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Loneliness

This loneliness I feel

Wishing to be loved

By someone

By myself.

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My heart permanently throbbing

I’ve always hated silence

Reminding me of my prescence.

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That clock ticking

Every tick a second lost

As if my time priceless.

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Corona

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It is coming you know for all of us

No one cares or gives a fuss

It’s just a cold a little bug

You’re invincible, dont give a fluff

People are dying all around the world

People are coughing, germs swirl

It started with one, one patient x

Where are we now? it’s complex

You may lose someone, someone you hold dear

Maybe that will make things a little more clear

Health workers are dying trying to save

Governments are struggling, just to stave

One thing we are asked by all of them

Stay indoors, be responsible my friend

Social distancing, one metre between us

Is it that difficult? really so rough?

This is just the start it’s going to be hard

Support the others, stay on the path

We will beat this, together as one

This is real, it is not just for fun

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Help…

I have never felt so alone

When surrounded by many

I have never felt so imprisoned

Even though I am free to go

I have never felt so hopeless

Even when I can choose

I have never felt so lost

Even though I know the way

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My tears I cannot cry

My thoughts I cannot lie

My angst I cannot suppress

Even though I try

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Trapped doing the same each day

The same old daily grind

Gaping hole inside of me

The bottom you won’t find.

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I have never felt like escaping

As much as I do now

To end it all as a coward

The only way I know how